Clock strikes at 10:40 pm, it`s a noiseless night. I feel empty deep in my heart, something is missing. Maybe it`s because I am staying all alone or maybe because I am missing home?

God knows what in my mind. I sometimes am afraid of myself as I don`t understand the very me. I know it sounds crazy but it`s true. I plan like a professional and laze around like a beggar.

I was just looking at the picture of past 5 years back and it brought me strange pain in my heart. What is that feeling? I need to find it out. I ask it to my eyes and it was about to cry, when asked to mouth it was smiling.  Heart heavy and my brain brought flashes of memories. What is all these? Do others also go through same experience?  One thing I learnt from these pictures is that if I had no pictures of my memories it would have been faded away just like the dreams I had last night. I look at those pictures recollecting people in it and for some it took few minutes to recollect their name, which was the saddest part. I am not doing justice to them because they were my part of my past. The past that I wish so much to live again lively.