Daily Life

Wake up in the morning, wishing I could sleep for another five minutes ... When I am awoke from sleep there is a big grief that I should not be sleeping for this many hours......my life has been always like this always regretting, thinking of changing, again regretting, thinking of changing with strong motivation but only to land up regretting.  Sometime I ask this question so many time “will I ever change” but the answer is definitely big NO.

Dear God is there any motivation of my existence or am I just another junk like the dustbin about to get emptied. I know people say time takes care of everything, but I just cannot wait.

Every morning I pray to be kind, patience, caring and loving but at the end of the day I always end up hurting others,  which make me sick. I know I should not do thongs which I do but always land up doing that thing and don`t do what I should do.

Dear God is there any chance of me, bring the reason for someone`s smile? Or would I always be the reason for their lost smile. People around me don`t understand how much I am trying to bring a smile to them but you can see God, so please always keep them happy for me.

These things bother me so much that sometime tears just rolls up without permission but I am able to lead my life with full energy because of my loving Mother, caring sister, innocent people and understanding friends. thought it may be tough for them to care, love, understand me but they still stands beside me. 

For that I am really Thankful God, for sending so many people in my life who have filled the holes of my life.