Just 7 Days
I have always been a closet person, never have I ever thought that opening myself to world would be so hard. I always thought I would never fit in this society but I was wrong I was just not comfortable with some weird kind of people not that I am perfect (I may be the weird one in someone`s eyes … hehehe). So recently I went to attain a training which was for seven long days. It seemed to long for me but when it actually started it ended in the blinks of my eyes. At times I find myself worrying about what will happen in that moment? How would I survive? and How would I react to it? but the there is always a voice that echoes in my mind and deep down my heart that says, “Everything will be fine, don`t worry. This too will pass”. And to my surprise it did. Everything went smoothly and I am shocked how I could actually mold myself to fit inside a container I never expected. Sometimes it`s hard to believe of what I could do which in my wildest dream never expected to.
So it all started with the mixed feeling of how will I be able to cope up with the training to when will it finish, but as it`s flow touched me I began to feel clam. Everything seemed so simple and everyone was there for learning…carrying their empty brains just like me. I guess their brain would not be 100 % empty but mine was… I was counting the number of days left, so that I could pack up my things up and say goodbye to it. I never thought that I would miss that moment so much that I would want to go back to it again. And I am thinking why am I like this? Why do I always have this kind of feelings whenever I return from some place? Then I realized that it was not the time that I cherished but the knowledge, skills and lessons that I learnt during that 7 days made me miss those moment. At present I am back to my normal routine of going to school and coming back to home, sleeping getting up teaching and then again coming back to home. In middle of this I am learning something but not as much as I have been learning during that 7 days’ time. I learnt that I was also hungry for knowledge, skills and lessons but at times something in me holds back. What was holding me back? Yet to figure that out, for time being let’s just assumes that I am bit self-centered girl… which is true.
Now let`s go to what I learnt so far, I met with different people. People who was my college friends, roommate, college senior and some who I felt I knew them but never got to ask who they were… so my first lessons started as soon as I meet people. I learnt that I was very poor with people. I never took notice of them, of what they were being called, where they were and where I met them. I also learnt that if you want people around you, it`s very important to know their names and their village and also comes where you met them. At times it made me look as a bad person who does not want to talk to people. In my mind I talk to every person I come across, I even talk with my eyes but they never seem to understand me. So I promise to myself that I will try my best to remember people and their names for future reference so that I don`t have a hard time recollecting where I met them. I hope I pass the first round.
When it comes to my second lesson, I thought I would never be ever to open up but it was not true. Whoever I met I was able to adjust, I just needed to tame my ego and tell my heart that I had no option. I always thought that I would never be able to fit in the society but I was wrong as I said earlier. I was just dealing with people wrongly. No matter who the person is, I found out the strategies to be friend with them. The strategy was, “talking”. I just had to talk properly and in return they talked properly to me.
Third lesson was that I must expect and learn to say, “No” loudly until it is heard loud and clear. Every person is different and I respect that. I hold respect for every being but some people lose that respect for talking things that are not appropriate in the gatherings. I felt so disgraceful for listening such words or jokes but then I realized that if I don`t speak it out who will? Something in me stirred up. I felt bad, low, insulted and even looked down as women. Then I had to do something, so I did. I took a chance to talk to the people about how we should respect each individual and how talking about indecent things and topic will lead to disrespectful to that person which will also lead to conflicts and hate. Do you know what the best part was? When I stood up everyone in the room, everyone accepted my point positively right at my face. They nodded on every word I said and respected my voice. To which I am thankful. I hope no one in the world have to feel any shame or kind of discomfort in any form anywhere because in the world where we could anything, Why not create only Happiness!
Fourth lessons could be about opening my eyes, what was I doing till now? What will I do again? This question have been with me forever… I am still asking it… I never have any proper answer for this question. I feel that I am not doing enough. Everyone seem to be moving fast, I know that I should not compare myself with others but I need to do that at times otherwise I will never earn to change for good. I don`t know for how long will this passion stay with me, but I hope it stays with me till I no longer need any passion to do what was meant to be done.
Lastly I found out that I can fall for anyone, anything anywhere easily. I met with people, connected with them just for 7 days and I miss them already. I feel that I left a part of me in all those places that I have been even in short duration. I vividly remember every room, our bed, our kitchen, corners, steps, the Guru Lhakhag, shops, chairs, tables, crow, the faces of people and many more. There is something in traveling that gives us some kind of positive vibes that makes us look forward for next travelling. I hope and wish for my next travelling be more energetic I know knowledge and others will follow as a bonus.
I meet people from different walks of life, learnt something from them and taught them what I know… laugh so much in these 7 days which I believed would not have if we were not together. I wrote this so as to remind future me of what past me had changed so much. It would be over exaggeration if I say that I have changed from this training but I must say it, Yes I did! A part of me has changed for good and better me.
Thank you!
I have always been a closet person, never have I ever thought that opening myself to world would be so hard. I always thought I would never fit in this society but I was wrong I was just not comfortable with some weird kind of people not that I am perfect (I may be the weird one in someone`s eyes … hehehe). So recently I went to attain a training which was for seven long days. It seemed to long for me but when it actually started it ended in the blinks of my eyes. At times I find myself worrying about what will happen in that moment? How would I survive? and How would I react to it? but the there is always a voice that echoes in my mind and deep down my heart that says, “Everything will be fine, don`t worry. This too will pass”. And to my surprise it did. Everything went smoothly and I am shocked how I could actually mold myself to fit inside a container I never expected. Sometimes it`s hard to believe of what I could do which in my wildest dream never expected to.
So it all started with the mixed feeling of how will I be able to cope up with the training to when will it finish, but as it`s flow touched me I began to feel clam. Everything seemed so simple and everyone was there for learning…carrying their empty brains just like me. I guess their brain would not be 100 % empty but mine was… I was counting the number of days left, so that I could pack up my things up and say goodbye to it. I never thought that I would miss that moment so much that I would want to go back to it again. And I am thinking why am I like this? Why do I always have this kind of feelings whenever I return from some place? Then I realized that it was not the time that I cherished but the knowledge, skills and lessons that I learnt during that 7 days made me miss those moment. At present I am back to my normal routine of going to school and coming back to home, sleeping getting up teaching and then again coming back to home. In middle of this I am learning something but not as much as I have been learning during that 7 days’ time. I learnt that I was also hungry for knowledge, skills and lessons but at times something in me holds back. What was holding me back? Yet to figure that out, for time being let’s just assumes that I am bit self-centered girl… which is true.
Now let`s go to what I learnt so far, I met with different people. People who was my college friends, roommate, college senior and some who I felt I knew them but never got to ask who they were… so my first lessons started as soon as I meet people. I learnt that I was very poor with people. I never took notice of them, of what they were being called, where they were and where I met them. I also learnt that if you want people around you, it`s very important to know their names and their village and also comes where you met them. At times it made me look as a bad person who does not want to talk to people. In my mind I talk to every person I come across, I even talk with my eyes but they never seem to understand me. So I promise to myself that I will try my best to remember people and their names for future reference so that I don`t have a hard time recollecting where I met them. I hope I pass the first round.
When it comes to my second lesson, I thought I would never be ever to open up but it was not true. Whoever I met I was able to adjust, I just needed to tame my ego and tell my heart that I had no option. I always thought that I would never be able to fit in the society but I was wrong as I said earlier. I was just dealing with people wrongly. No matter who the person is, I found out the strategies to be friend with them. The strategy was, “talking”. I just had to talk properly and in return they talked properly to me.
Third lesson was that I must expect and learn to say, “No” loudly until it is heard loud and clear. Every person is different and I respect that. I hold respect for every being but some people lose that respect for talking things that are not appropriate in the gatherings. I felt so disgraceful for listening such words or jokes but then I realized that if I don`t speak it out who will? Something in me stirred up. I felt bad, low, insulted and even looked down as women. Then I had to do something, so I did. I took a chance to talk to the people about how we should respect each individual and how talking about indecent things and topic will lead to disrespectful to that person which will also lead to conflicts and hate. Do you know what the best part was? When I stood up everyone in the room, everyone accepted my point positively right at my face. They nodded on every word I said and respected my voice. To which I am thankful. I hope no one in the world have to feel any shame or kind of discomfort in any form anywhere because in the world where we could anything, Why not create only Happiness!
Fourth lessons could be about opening my eyes, what was I doing till now? What will I do again? This question have been with me forever… I am still asking it… I never have any proper answer for this question. I feel that I am not doing enough. Everyone seem to be moving fast, I know that I should not compare myself with others but I need to do that at times otherwise I will never earn to change for good. I don`t know for how long will this passion stay with me, but I hope it stays with me till I no longer need any passion to do what was meant to be done.
Lastly I found out that I can fall for anyone, anything anywhere easily. I met with people, connected with them just for 7 days and I miss them already. I feel that I left a part of me in all those places that I have been even in short duration. I vividly remember every room, our bed, our kitchen, corners, steps, the Guru Lhakhag, shops, chairs, tables, crow, the faces of people and many more. There is something in traveling that gives us some kind of positive vibes that makes us look forward for next travelling. I hope and wish for my next travelling be more energetic I know knowledge and others will follow as a bonus.
I meet people from different walks of life, learnt something from them and taught them what I know… laugh so much in these 7 days which I believed would not have if we were not together. I wrote this so as to remind future me of what past me had changed so much. It would be over exaggeration if I say that I have changed from this training but I must say it, Yes I did! A part of me has changed for good and better me.
Thank you!
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